JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR OPENS TODAY AT THE NEW CANDLELIGHT DINNER THEATRE AND I AM IN IT

runs from today till april 23 every weekend

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Love you all... sorry, it's been hell week at candlelight... gotta go, school musical rehearsal is going on and I need to get there now

peace love and shwaka

So, I love my friends... thank you

Umm... sorry I'm so out of sorts this time of year.  Things get crazy.  But I am feeling a bit better, because of some of the wonderful people I know.  Who make me feel loved and cared for and who are always there to help me and make me feel better and give me advice and write me poems and pat me on the head and give me hugs and everything. 

I really am at a loss for words right now.

So... this lady took some crazy pictures of me while I was at MSCA over the summer.  And she sent them to me.  She is a fashion designer and photographer, and she took some wild head shots of me.  They don't look like me at all.  Thought you should see them.  Here they are.

scary I know.  She edited it a lot.  I think it is rather frightening.  In a sort of cool colorful way.  Almost... exotic.  But scary.

I look so... weird.  For a change.  No really, I look a different weird.

Does that even remotely resemble me?  They straightened my hair and parted it differently... it looks... different.

1) I sort of like this because it also doesn't look like me and 2) No I am not naked.  It's called a halter top so LEAVE ME ALONE :)

This I think may be my favorite...

How cool is that.  I love not looking like me, it makes me feel better about myself.  Sort of.  That is just an awesome picture though.

So, there they are.  Crystal told me I should show them to people.  My mom accidently brought them to school with my homework so I showed them to Crystal.  She liked them.  I sort of do too... in a weird way.  Well that's that.

Peace love and shwaka

I don't know if I would be able to deal with how much that would hurt me...

So, I am having a sort of not so good as usual time these past few weeks.  I am becoming not as much who I want to be and it is sort of making me feel quite not good.  Umm... yeah.

Good thing I know such cool people and they make me happy.  I love my friends.

JCS is going well.  We will be done blocking and learning the show, except the crucifixion, by Sunday.  Wow.  That's a lot of stuff.  Off book by Sunday... wow.  We have been rehearsing only a couple of weeks.  Correction:  I am not technically a prostitute; I am a concubine.  I am also "Pilate's girl", as the cast has dubbed me.  All this means is I wear a costume full of (or rather, not full of... eeek) skimpiness and I carry a bowl of water for Pilate to wash his hands in.  The costume designer has planned my outfit and... well, I guess you'll have to see the show... ahhhh hope you aren't scarred for life, I think I may be...

Umm, yep.  I still feel sort of rotten from Monday with all of the craziness with AP English.  To make it brief...There were some miscommunications, and basically, my two favorite teachers now despise me.  And it is really bad because I really admire them.  I think they are so awesome.  And they hate me now.  And I am really confused, because I don't know exactly why they hate me so much.  And don't tell me they don't, because they pretty much told me they did.  So... sadness.  I felt really bad.  Really bad.  Actually I felt so bad that my dad thought I was going to need to be hospitalized.   Ha ha.  I was pretty messed up.  An hour or two of Broadway music, stress-relief tea, JCS rehearsal and a visit to Crystal's for the night helped very very much.  But I am still not feeling very good.  I think I've made myself sick.  My body is reacting in weird bad ways, and it is quite unpleasant.  Yay stress.  So, things are not going so well.  Except for hanging out with Crystal.  And JCS is nice too... but not quite as cool as hanging out with Crystal :)

I bought a lot of peasant skirts.  I'm going to wear them to school for happiness.

My schedule is rotten.

Contemporary world study or whatever

Concert choir/band

AP Calc

French III (long long bad story)

AP English

I don't know what lunch I have.  But I will miss honors chem and that lunch... I love those people... :(

Oh yeah VA Tech Honor Band was ok... I auditioned for the 5 bands (Golden Hokie, Maroon Hokie, Orange Hokie, Silver Hokie, and Bronze Hokie) and totally messed up my audition (don't argue, I really did... I made a fool of myself)... but somehow I landed the top band, Golden Hokie Band.  They were REALLY good.  I met 6-mallet percussionists, crazy marimba people, super awesome snare drummers... they could play EVERYTHING, too...There were 9 of us and EVERYONE was better than me.  Got to spend some time with my lovely husband Danny, too... twas an ok weekend I guess.  I don't know, I guess I'm just so stressed out...

Ummm I think that's all I have to say.

Gnight.

Peace love and shwaka

Currently Listening Jesus Christ Superstar (Original London Concept Recording) By Andrew Lloyd Webber, Tim Rice see related

So, I am a crazy mess, not that I am complaining, I am just remarking.

-You're a Good Man Charlie Brown 2:45-5:00 about every day

-Jesus Christ Superstar 6:30 to 10:00... well, including driving, more like 5:30-11:00... just about every day

-Virginia Tech Honor Band all weekend, 6 hours away.. I have to leave tomorrow and miss two rehearsals and YAGMCB practice

-All State Chorus, which I will need to learn all of my music for... perhaps 8 songs?

-Three songs for Solo and Ensemble... two vocal, one marimba

-AP English 11 work...

-AP Calculus work...

-Normal Band and Chorus and Percussion Ensemble and Percussion Sectionals... which I am supposed to be a leader in, I guess... MC is weird about that.  I'm not supposed to be, but I guess he wants me to be.

-Helping with Talent Show

-Trying to salvage student council... I am vice president and I feel like I am not able to help enough

-NHS which hasn't done much however

-Soon All County Band... if I make it, but unless I do really badly, I should, since I am doing a level 5 piece

What am I doing writing this, you don't want to hear that anyway, nevermind.

AH  life is crazy now, I better be able to get through this without disaster.... I'll find a way...

Rehearsals are going pretty well, good news is:

I am a prostitute.

Yes, I have finally reached that high point in musical theatre that is called prostitution.  Hopefully I will follow this prostitute role with a more substantial one, like Aldonza or Fantine or Lucy or Mary...In case you do not know, often the best female roles in musicals are prostitutes.

So on that note, show opens Feb 17.... every weekend till April 23... Except I miss Feb 24 and 25, March 10 and 11, and... that may be it.  Tickets, anyone?  Go to www.newcandlelighttheatre.com for info.... it's gonna be neat, you should see it...

Yeah, come see me hang all over my assigned apostle.  Yeah.  Ahhhh it makes me want to die a little even though I am very proud of myself.

Well, tomorrow I am off to Virginia Tech after school, with Danny.  Wish me luck at the auditions there, I have no backup plan if they reject me.  I would love to come back and have some nice comments to read... hint hint... so if you love me or feel sorry for me you should leave me something to read when I get back, it would bring me such joy...

Love for you all, I'll miss you on Friday (and over the weekend)

Peace love and shwaka

I don't know why, but I feel very little need or desire to write on xanga these days.  Time is also an issue, of course... but I don't really feel like writing.

I will anyway, though.

Hmmm.... Monday I had a county council meeting, which was comme ci comme ca (so-so), and then I had play practice for You're a Good Man Charlie Brown.  Joy.   So many high C's... I sound like I ate a few dozen helium balloons, or like you pressed play twice on the VCR and it goes all fast and chipmunk-y.  Eww

Tuesday I had play practice and then JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR REHEARSAL YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS we learned the Simon dance (Simon Zealotes.... "Christ you know I love you, did you see I waved, I believe in you and God, so tell me that I'm saved..."....... crazy fast aerobicish dancing).

Wednesday I had play practice.

Thursday I had play practice but left early to babysit my little darlings Jamie and Rhys, who had me spin them around in the air for about an hour to the lovely background music of "You're a Good Man Charlie Brown" over and over and over and over.   Crazy little adorable demon children.  I love them.

Friday I left play practice early again for babysitting again where I spun them around to Charlie Brown again... but it was awesome because then I went to Crystal's house and spent the night,

And I left early Saturday morning for another JCS rehearsal, where we learned most of the songs.  I have one line, guys!  A singing line!  Seven words!  Last show, it was four! ("Except for every meal".... hahaha) Yeah, I say "Tell me Christ how you feel tonight" yay.  Such joy.  We all get a line.  It is nice.  After rehearsal I went to Ally's with some lovely people, and then Travis and I went back to Crystals.  Happy energy for you... I'm sorry I'm not able to make things better............ Well, I slept over Crystal's again

And left at about 1:30 this morning for ANOTHER JCS rehearsal, where we learned the rest of the music.  It is a lot of music, too.  Yay!  Well, tomorrow I've got another rehearsal at 6:30 till 10 (but I probably won't be home till about 11, ick).  I'll probably do homework all morning and afternoon.

I have the best friends ever.  And I have the bestest sister-friend-hero in the world.  Only Crystal could help me survive crazy bursts of non-realness that made me freak out every couple of hours.... thank you...

I love you all!  My friends are so nice, you guys are the best!  I wish you could be as happy as you make me....

Peace and love, and much shwaka for you, my friends